Sometimes

Sometimes peace eludes me

Sometimes I’m not the glowy spiritual being i imagine myself to be

Sometimes I am a hypocrite

Sometimes I say one thing and catch myself doing another

Sometimes I find myself acting in the same way I get mad at others for acting

Sometimes I want this journey to be easier and not hurt so much in my chest

Sometimes I just want someone to see how sensitive I am,

how much I burn deeply for love,

and to give it to me,

without me trying to figure it out,

without me having to do something.