Sometimes peace eludes me
Sometimes I’m not the glowy spiritual being i imagine myself to be
Sometimes I am a hypocrite
Sometimes I say one thing and catch myself doing another
Sometimes I find myself acting in the same way I get mad at others for acting
Sometimes I want this journey to be easier and not hurt so much in my chest
Sometimes I just want someone to see how sensitive I am,
how much I burn deeply for love,
and to give it to me,
without me trying to figure it out,
without me having to do something.